Saying Goodbye....

Saying goodbye is hard.  Yes, I know people say that a lot, but if you really think about it, it's true.  Since I have last posted, there have been MAJOR changes in my life.  As I read my words, I wondered... if I knew then what I know now,  would I have ventured down the same path?  Isn't that the question?

Owning and eventually closing a business is hard.  Anyone that has had to do it knows what I am talking about.  While you own this business, this thing, this non-breathing entity takes a hold of your life and soul and demands every bit of your attention 24 hours a day.   It somehow creeps into every fiber of everyday life until it is all you think about.  The worries, the stress, the victories and defeats are all consuming.  This thing becomes your baby.  You think how you can improve it, change it, make it better...... constantly.  You sink more and more money into it....hoping.  Sometimes, if you're lucky, your hard work takes off and is a roaring success.  That is the hope of ANYONE that goes into business for themselves.  But then, sadly, sometimes it doesn't, and you're left with a heart wrenching decision.

Saying goodbye.  That decision for us was a necessity.  Yes, it was very hard and we tried everything in our power not to have to close.  But, in the end it was the only real choice.  You know what the weirdest part is?  It was the best decision we could have every made!!!

I knew the business was a stress on our marriage, I knew I was a tad bit obsessed with trying to make it better, but I didn't know just how much until we closed.  I was a crazy person!  Our marriage was not healthy.  I am definitely not saying the stress is completely gone.  Now we are dealing with the fallout of closing a business (yes that sucks badly).  But I feel more sane and so much closer to my husband and children.  Saying goodbye; best thing we ever did.